from 2007.

i give up. i give up. here we go. here we go. there's nothing left except for pure nothingness.
are you happy now? are you happy that i am and have absolute nothing?

here i am. there's nothing left to give. there's nothing left to say. there's nothing left to do. there's nothing left to think. i've got nothing for you.

the ocean has swept away my sand castle of dreams and i'm left in a pit. what else is there to say except nothing?
speechless. breathless. utter insanity. absolute nothingness.
permeating through me. sifting. seeping. thoroughly soaking me to the core.
what else is there now? nothing.
i answer my own questions because i see no answers. no more. no more of this.
i don't understand. i don't know. i'm too tired to understand. i'm too tired to delve in this anymore.
what else can i do except move on? move forward one step at a time and try and make my way through these shades of grey?

hold my hand now. hold me as i can't see anything farther than a few inches.

i'm done

it's all gone now. it's all swept out to sea. floating then drowning. nothing holds water anymore. one by one, they've all been destroyed. and what am i left with? nothing.

one by one, they've all been destroyed. absolutely annihilated. blown to smithereens. and so i sit here now, feeling lost, confused, frustrated, disappointed, hurt, and so completely vulnerable.

vulnerable. naked. everything and nothing in one.

and perhaps .... perhaps, free at last